It’s not been a particularly good week. I won’t really go into it because I try to avoid the angsty blog posts, but I am going to post this here because it’s something I’m trying to do and I feel like putting it out there where people (mainly, my few readers) are aware of it and can, I don’t know, put me back in line if I ever fall out again.
I am trying to get myself into the frame of mind that things sometimes just happen. No matter what I do, I cannot realistically avoid every possible disaster. I can try to be better in things and avoid some, but regardless, things are going to happen. I need to understand this.
The other thing I really need to understand is that there is nothing I can do about it. I have a tendency to sit and wallow in my mistakes as if they are life-threatening. It is vital that I learn to do what I can to fix the mistake, learn from it, and move on with life. Because no matter what, life will go on. Mistakes are going to be road blocks in my life or completely destroy something, depending on the level of the mistake, but things will go on. It’s not the end of the world. No matter how much it might feel like at the time, it’s not.
I need to do this because the suffocating pain can just be so over-whelming sometimes. The elevated stress and continuous wishing I could go back and fix things doesn’t help. If anything, it only increases my problems. I’m not shooting for optimism. I just want a slightly less over-powering pessimism.
I’ll get around to comments at some point, perhaps. Either way, an all-around thanks for the congratulations on the college to everyone who gave it to me.